This is Life

I keep thinking I should blog. It as been such a long time and I am really not keeping up. I was so good about blogging about Jack every single month, but I just barely remember that Chloe is another month older. The time has just flown by. Sometimes I wish that life would just slow down and I could just soak in the moments. Maybe that is some fo the reason I have not blogged very consistently, I am trying to soak up those moments. I absolutely love being a mother and I love both of my children dearly. Yes, it may mean days where I don't shower, or don't have a real meal. It may even mean melt downs and messes, but at the end of the day when I look into my children's faces and see their beautiful smiles, or when they give me big hugs or when everythin is right ith the world when mom walks in the door....those are the moments that make everything else worth it. I am often amazed at the love that I feel for my children. It is much more than I would have imagined possible. It is a gift.

It seems like all I do lately is focus on how difficult my life is and how it does not go the  way that I have expected it to. I really don't want to live in that place. God has been teaching me so much through friends, devotionals and even trials. I am reminded that I have a blessed life and outside the difficulties of this life I can stand firm on a very real hope. A hope that there is a purpose to each day and there is something bigger than my small little problems. What a good reminder. When I think of eternity it is great to remember the things that are important in this life. A professor in college once told me that the only thing in this life that matter are the relationships. I love that. I often have to remind myself of this so that each day I can focus on those relationships that God has blessed me with and the relationships that are to come my way.  I long to pass this on to my children. I want them to live with an eternal perspective and always put the needs of others above themselves. This is so contrary to our culture, but it is exactly what God has asked of us. I long for them to know these things. I know that the best way to teach them these things is by putting them into practice in my own life. It is more difficult than I imagined, but I pray that the love of Christ will shine through my actions so my children will be impacted.

Okay, I am not even sure what tangent I ended up on, but I guess sometimes it is good to just sit down and release emotions.